Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas

I can’t believe that 2019 is almost over. This past year has brought so much change into our lives. I went back to work more then I had planned. Connor started school and is loving it. Raymond finally got on a schedule again after many years of just working crazy times. I started my instagram and this blog. Which has helped me grow as a mom, wife and woman. We got our very first new boat. We have learned that Toy Story is life in our house with Connor. After 15 1/2 years with Abby we had to say goodbye just a few days ago. We are still trying to get adjusted to our home without her here. I sure there is more I am forgetting but these are the things that stick out to me the most.

2020 is looking to be another great year for us. I can’t wait to see where this road will bring me with my blog. I pray that I can keep writing things that mean something to me and can help others. I ‘m looking forward to seeing how much Connor will grow. He is learning so much already. He’ll be fully talking soon and we’ll finally understand what he is really saying haha. We’ll finally have time to do more family outings. Maybe even a new puppy is in the plans for us. Whatever it will be I know that it will work out because we give it to God.

With Christmas Eve being today it just has me thinking about how even thought this is Connor’s third Christmas, this is his first that he hopeful get excited about it. So far he has enjoyed all the lights and the few gifts he has gotten. The excitement on his face will surely make this our best Christmas yet. We don’t get to spend every Christmas with Raymond because of his job, but this year we do. Having my little family together is just what I asked for. It’s not about the gifts under the tree or whats in the stockings. It’s about watching the joy on Connor’s face, spending time together, and remember that this season is about Christ and his birth.

My wish for each and everyone of you is to find peace in this season. Spend time with those you love. Wrap yourself with the love of family and friends. I pray that those of you going through hard times will see that light and know that it soon will get better with the power of God in your life. The holidays aren’t always bright and shiny like we wish it would be. But know that Christ sees you are will help guide you if you just ask him too.

When we are at church this evening and they turn out all the lights, we’ll sing “Silent Night” over candle light. The Peace and Joy that will over come our church and ours hearts will be there to show us that this is reason for today and tomorrow.

“Have yourself a merry little Christmas. Let your hearts be light. From now on our troubles will be out of sight.” From our family to yours!!

Stocking Stuffer Guide

Stocking Stuffer Guide

I promised ya’ll a stocking stuff guide so here it is!!! Its a mix of everything or everyone!! A few things I always put in ours that’s not on this list is: new toothbrushes, deodorant, razors, makeup, a movie, gift cards and our favorite candies. I really hope this helps you find a few things to fill those stockings. Everything is from amazon with most of them being prime to get in time for Christmas!! I tried to keep every thing under $30.

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  1. Hair wraps Head bands –
  2. AirPods case –
  3. The Original MakeUp Eraser –
  4. Slim Leather Wallet –
  5. Crayola Twistable Crayons –
  6. Poo-Pourri –
  7. Small Lego sets –
  8. Wooden Beard Comb –
  9. Pull back toy cars –
  10. The Original Slinky –
  11. Earbud holder –
  12. Invisibobble –
  13. No Button –
  14. Portable Charger Battery Pack –
  15. Chocolate Coal –
  16. Tile Pro finders –
  17. Reusable Stainless Steel Straws –
  18. Flying Christmas Elves –
  19. Squishy Toys –
  20. Desktop Tetherball –
  21. Beard Oil –
  22. MakeUp Brushes –
  23. UNO Card Game –
  24. Fishin’ bath toy –
  25. Mini Mr Potato Head toys –
  26. Play-Doh –
  27. Dad Jokes book –
  28. Magnet pick up tool –
  29. No Tie shoelaces –
  30. Selfie ring Light –
Journey to having Connor

Journey to having Connor

Like most little girls I always loved playing baby dolls because I got to be mommy.  Kids were always a joy to be around.  When I was 13 I became an aunt to twin girls, they were my real life baby dolls. I knew being a mom was what I was meant to be in life.  During high school there was a good number of girls every year having babies.  I thought at that time I was ready to be a mom.  Not my smartest years lol.  But God knew better and never let that happen. You must be thinking what does any of that have to do me becoming a mom at the age of 30?  Well the journey really began then.  

When in high school I had the worse problems when it can to my cycle.  I would get very sick. I would just run out of class to the restroom. I even had teachers call my mom to ask her if I was pregnant. This was every month all month.  I would be on my cycle for 2-3 weeks at a time.  At times I was on the shot and the pill. My cramps would be so bad that I would have to ball myself up to help calm them down.  This went on for years.  

Like I said when in high I thought I was ready and even right out of high school too.  The boyfriend I had at that time was already a dad, so we tried to have our own.  Nothing ever happened.  Looking back now I’m glad it didn’t happen.  (so glad he isn’t in my life – trouble for sure lol)  

Raymond and I started dating January 2007, by March we had moved in together.  Around August that same year we joked with my mom and told her we wanted to get married before the end of the year. To our surprise she was all about it.  That night we talked about really getting married but knew that it wasn’t going to before the year was up.  May 03,2008 we said “I Do.” I swear from that day forward I should have started charging people a dollar every time they would ask us, “When are you going to have a baby?” I would be so rich hahaha.  I was 20 and Raymond was 24 when we got married. Most of our friends already had kids, but we knew we wanted to wait a little while.  Our plan was to buy a house, get our finances in order, and then have a baby.  We brought our home in 2009.  A few years went by and we finally said “let’s try for a baby.”  So to the doctors I went.  He had already knew about the problems I have with my cycle.  This was also the time that the HPV test and vaccines were coming out.  I got tested because it was suggested by my doctor just to be safe.  My test came back that I did have a form of HPV.  The form I have can cause cancer and infertility.  Those are two words no 22 year old wants to hear come from her doctor.  This is where our journey really took a turn.  

I wasn’t going to let that get to me.  My doctor told me just because I have the chase of these problems doesn’t mean that I will have them.  So I got off of my birth control and we just let it be.  At about 6 months of trying I started having these huge cyst.  I was in the worse pain. I had a check up to see what was going on.  He could tell that the paint i was having was because one of the cysts had popped.  With the amount of fluid it had to have been a very big cyst.  He also found a second one that was the size of a golfball.  Most doctors do not consider it an infertile issue until a year of trying, but with my past cycle problems, the HPV, and now the big cyst we had reason for conciser.  

I started talking Clomid and Dopamine (I believe that was the name if them) to try and boost my chances.  The clomid really got to my emotions, poor Raymond.  We ran hormone level test.  We made sure my tubes weren’t blocked.  We even would do shot boosters to help.  After about another year of trying it was time to stop the meds and give my body a break.  A few months went by.  I started to feel a little different. I never thought much of it when I would miss my cycle because sometimes I would be a week to two weeks late.  When after realizing I was almost a month late I started to notices that my boobs where hot. So after work one night I took a best.  It was September 30, 2014.  I will never forget that.  I will also never forget the look on Raymond’s face when I told him. I went that next morning to do blood work to make sure. While getting ready to go to dinner for Raymond’s birthday we got the call that I was pregnant but only about 3 week according to my levels.  Before we even left for dinner I started to spot.  Raymond wanted so bad to tell his family the good news, but I didn’t want to.  I was so scared due to the spotting, but I hadn’t told him about it.  The whole dinner I would get up and go check myself.  By the time we got home I had to tell him because it was getting heaver.   Around 4 am that morning I woke up to this pain I can’t begin to tell you about.  I went right to the bathroom and what I found looked as if someone had put a big piece of lever in my hand.  I knew what this meant.  Waking up your husband on his birthday to tell him he has to take you to the doctors for that reason is so hard. 

As I explained in my last blog that was the beginning of my lost time.  I waited about 6 months before I was ready to start trying again.  During that time my doctor told me he was going to be retiring so I had to find a new OBGYN.  The doctor I choose to go with was very good at his job., he came very highly recommend by a number of family and friends.  One of my friends even seen him while she was having trouble getting pregnant. One of the reason I choose him was because he had a friend he would consult with.  She would let him know all of the things he could do in his office before sending his patients to her.  We started the Clomid and another drug (I can’t remember the name) again.  We would check every few days during pike time and I would get a boost shot to help the eggs release.  He even finally got Raymond to agree to go get checked to make sure it wasn’t him.  Which it wasn’t, that man had super spam. Another year and a half went by and we where finally at the time we knew I needed to go see the specialist.  

We decided we need to take time and weight all of our options.  Should we go to the specialist or do we adopt?  October 2016 we were asked about adopting two boys, but money was tight and it wasn’t an option. Adoption and IVF are both very expansive.  How would we could up with that kind of money? We looked into personal loans, refinancing our home, and even thought about asking our family for help.  We choose to take it one step at a time.  First we needed to call the specialist and book the consult to talk with her.  So once the first of the year came around we had our plan as to what we would do with our tax return.  We enjoyed our Christmas, New Year, and a visit from family!  January 14, 2017 I was at work when my app dinged and asked why I hadn’t marked my cycle yet?  I got to thinking!  Why am I late? Why are my boobs hot?  I came home and Raymond said “don’t stress let’s enjoy our weekend. The weather is perfect.”  So that’s what we did, we enjoyed our weekend.  But come Monday January 16, 2017 I couldn’t wait to pee on that stick.  Those two pink lines was the best thing in the world.  When I called my doctor to get in for blood work his accents laughed and told me I was the third patient with infertility issues to call that morning with a positive pregnancy test.  The excitement was out of this world. All of my numbers were super high and everything looked great.  

Looking at it in writing it doesn’t look like much.  But there was countless nights of me crying myself to sleep or just because I didn’t know what else to do.  Forced smiles when others would announce their amazing news of a baby.  Lots of Facebook posts and friends being unfollowed by Raymond so that he could keep me from seeing them and going into a depressed state.  Hot flashes out of this world from the meds I was on.  Bruises on my hip from the booster shots and on my arm from blood work.  Many miles put on my car going back and fourth to my doctors 45 minutes away.  Hours and hours of me praying and asking when will it be my turn.  Weeks of bible study learning my worth and how to give it to God.  Learning that I was 1 in 4 women that go thought this.  Learning the other women I knew that was also 1 in 4.  My journey to have Connor was the hardest most rewarding journey I have and will ever be on.  I learned to not give up on a dream.  To trust in God’s plans for you.  From the time we decided to start trying for a baby to the time we finally had Connor, Raymond and I changed and grow up so much.  We learned lots of things about each other.  We came out of it stronger.  We became the best parents we can be for Connor.  The journey we took showed us to appreciate every moment that comes along on our new journey.  

Every couples journey to have kids is different.  Some are fast and happen on the first try.  Some takes years. Some lead to adoption. Sadly some lead to no wheres.  Whatever your path is know you are not the only one.  Reach out to someone you know that has or is going through it.  Not sure you know someone, find a support group on social media.  Talk to a friend or a pastor.  Don’t keep it to yourself. 

I hope that this helps at lest one woman! That it shows her that she is not alone. No matter if your journey is short or long that it’s not just you. There is always someone you can turn too.

Little Boy Gift Guide 1-4

Little Boy Gift Guide 1-4

So I’m doing this little gift guide for little boys but you can get most of it for little girls too. I’m using things that Connor already has or what I want to get him soon. We went small with his Christmas this year because he is only 2 and lets face it he has so much all ready. We have be very fortunate to have been gifted the big items we were going to get him from some amazing friends, and our families spoils him. This gift guide will also work for Birthdays and Easter.

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  1. Play Kitchen – Step2 has so many different models and price ranges to choose from.
  2. Outside Play Set – Step2 has so many different models and price ranges to choose from.
  3. Battery Powered Electric Vehicle – There is lots of different brands and models to choose from. The ones with the parent remote makes for easy stop and control.
  4. Nuff Guns – Lots of different models and price ranges to choose from.
  5. Hot Wheels – From cars for $0.98 to the biggest of tracks. There is so many different ways you can go.
  6. Fisher-Price Little People – These are the best! You can find so many different styles. Connor is getting Toy Story ones this year but he has the tractor, airplane, firetruck and a zoo wagon.
  7. Strider 2-in-1 Rocking Bike, for Ages 6 Months to 5 Years
  8. Tonka Classic Steel Trucks. – Lots of different models to choose from.
  9. Dyson Ball Vacuum – now they can help clean up the mess they make.
  10. Flexible Track Playset –

Gift guide for her!!

Gift guide for her!!

This guide is all things I have and love or things I would love to get. As a kid I know I would have looked at my mom like she was crazy for some of the things on this list but as an adult and a mom sometimes it’s the things we need that would be the best gift. Now don’t get me wrong jewelry is always welcome lol but you know a robot that vacuums my floor would just make my day earlier lol. I hope that this small list helps out!!

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  1. The Beachwaver Curling Irons is by far the best curling iron I have ever owned or used in my life!!! My curls hold for days and its super easy to use!! Use my code: KENDRAWAVE at check to save 10%
  2. Kendra Scott Jewelry – She has so many amazing pieces to choose from my favorite is the Elisa Pendant Necklace and the Ellie Gold Stud Earrings.
  3. The Loopy Cases are my all time favorite case ever. I’ve had them for my last 3 phones and will keep going back to them!! Lots of colors and styles for so many different brands and models of smart phones.
  4. My Ring Light is one of my favorite things I bought this year! It works amazing for picture and videos. When I’m doing my makeup it gives me that bight light i need to make sure my sink looks normal and smooth!
  5. ‘ELLIS’ CLASSIC OVER THE KNEE SUEDE LEATHER BOOTS – are a must!!! I looked for over 10 years for a pair of Over the Knee Boots that would stay up on my small legs and these are them.  They feel amazing and look so fine.  I need them in EVERY COLOR!  They come in black, gray, and tan.
  6. Ginny Leather Crossbody Bag – This bag has been on my wish list forever now. I will get it one day – on day when I no longer need to carry 50 million things with me lol.
  7. This Dyson Lightweight Cordless Stick Vacuum Cleaner is all over the place right now. I used my friends the other day and boy do I want one now. Different models and prices to choose from.
  8. You can’t go wrong with a comfy pull over! There is a lot to choose from but these are a great price!!
  9. Revlon One-Step Hair Dryer & Volumizer Hot Air Brush is on just about every girl I know wish list this season. And why not?
  10. The iRobot Roomba Robot Vacuum is the one gift that would make my day to day easier!! They have different models for a cheaper price!
  11. Comfy PJ sets are always a great go to for those you are not sure what to get!!
  12. We already have the Echo Dot (3rd Gen) – Smart speaker with Alexa – and we love it!
  13. I really want to get Echo Show 5 – Compact smart display with Alexa this year.
  14. The peace of mind knowing that you have a camera at your home is the best feeling. With the Ring Doorbell camera I can see who is at my house and even see what my family is doing when they are outside playing.
  15. You can never go wrong with a gift card. Favorite store to shop at for herself. Go see her hairstylist and one for her next cut and color. Coffee lover could use a few cups on you. The possibilities are endless.
  16. The last gift there is no link to it. Every mom and wife would love a few Honey-Dos Coupons. You know things like – a back rub, things done around the house, kid free afternoon, date night, and anything you know your wife or mom needs done.
Gift guide For Men

Gift guide For Men

If the man or men in your life are anything like mine they are the hardest ones to buy for! Raymond and my dad are not sports fans in any way. They are both very hands on kind of guys, that includes Raymond’s uncle. All three of them just go out and buy whatever it is they want during the year. I am always racking my brain as to what I should get them. These items I’m about to share are all things I have gotten them in the past. I hope that this helps out some way. I know it’s not a whole lot of ideas but I do know that these things they did love.

This post is not sponsored or affiliated with the brands or stores I link them too. These are just where I have brought them from in the past. Any sale prices I post are as of today (12/6/2019) The prices are subjected to change at any moment.

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1.DEWALT 20-Volt Max 2-Tool Power Tool Combo Kit with Soft Case (2-Batteries Included and Charger Included) – On sale right now for $149

2. DEWALT 8-Volt 1/4-in Cordless Screwdriver (1-Battery Included and Charger Included) – On sale right now for $59

3. DEWALT 20-volt Max Cordless Jobsite Radio Bluetooth Adapter – On sale right now for $199

4. Utilitech 1000-Watt Halogen Stand Work Light – Priced at $39.98

5. **Rechargeable Flashlight, Spriak Magnetic Flashlights with Clip (Included Battery), Side Work Light, Bright, Zoomable Pocket EDC Flashlight for Camping, Hiking, Home Power Outage. The link will open to the 2 pack but there is a 1 piece there to choose from as well.

6. **Craftsman 450-Piece Mechanic’s Tool Set – Priced at $221.78

7. Corona ExtendedREACH Extendable-handle tool Weeder -Priced at $12.98

8. YETI Rambler 14 oz DuraCoat Mug – Multiple Colors – Priced at $24.99

9. Game Winner 2-Man Ladder Treestand 2.0 – On sale for $79.99

10. VP Racing 5-Gallon Motorsport Racing Liquid Jug Can Container & 14-Inch Hose – $35.99 – You can find them in different colors!